this transformation to what i'd been hiding
deeper in the far reaches of my soul
than i'd ever dare go.
to what i'd never trust in,
to what i'd never know.

i forced myself over to the evil,
sacrificed myself to the dark
that was growing inside me.
but now, to only expell it from my body--
puking, retching, throwing it out for good..
never giving in
never turning back
to something i could never be
to something i could never touch

lusting for a larger death.

as my scars heal,
the past fades.
it all blends to one..

objects in the rearview mirror of life.